Parenting craziness :)

Hey everyone! Things have been absolutely insane and AMAZING over the last 5 months! Our son moved in January 29th, he was 8 and a half months old and adorable! He turned 1 in May and we have so enjoyed being parents! Well... mostly enjoyed being parents... haha. Adjusting to parenthood is hard, especially when helping a child adjust to a new home and family... We have had some crazy, difficult attachment and separation issues, but not ever considered going back to how things were. There have been times, now that he is learning to have an opinion, when I cried (alot) because I didn't know what to do. But, I have never thought about Samuel as "someone else's child" or been resentful or regretful that we brought him into our home.... I have questioned my sanity or my ability to be a mother, but I think that is normal when we forget to let God do the parenting through us... :) I was recently asked to to share something I had posted along these lines on my facebook page for a friend, so here it is:

This is a blog post titled "To parents of small children: Let me be the one who says it out loud," a post about loving our small children, but being exhausted in every sense of the word. I posted it a few days ago, but my son has started throwing tantrums and refusing to sleep... I have read this like 8 times this week and cried every time. I keep trying to remind myself I'm not a bad mother just because I'm hormonal and want to cry constantly. I will say that if I hear "enjoy this time with him," a sarcastic "welcome to motherhood," or "you'll miss this season of your son's life" again, I will have to not be friends with whoever you are until this season is over. I'm glad you who are parents are passed this and don't remember how awful it is, but I can't wait until we get passed it and I'm missing the good things about this age and forgetting the tears I've cried everyday this week because I refuse to let my child run over me....
I love my son desperately and wouldn't trade him for the world, but I'll really like him more when he starts sleeping again and stops screaming at me....
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I say all of this to let everyone know that it is ok to be transparent... Not everyone has easy children, not everyone has an easy time being patient all the time, and not everyone has it easy.... I love my son more than I ever thought possible and I am so grateful for him! Sometimes, it is the biggest things God gives us that are the hardest to be thankful for... I also want to say that, if you are married and having a hard time getting pregnant, please take time to appreciate your spouse... We have had a hard time becoming parents and all we wanted for so long was that, and now we realize that we didn't appreciate each other enough... PLEASE ENJOY EVERY MOMENT! I know that is a dumb thing to say, because I was there, too. But I now wish that I had listened when I heard it before. If you have children, make your spouse your priority, it is vital for your child's future that they see you loving your spouse. :)